on stage. tonight.

i was all by myself but never felt an ounce of loneliness. then you came into my life, into every room in my heart. and everytime u leave, i know how it is to be alone now.

holy crap.. march fifth was the last time i made an entry. thats almost a lifetime ago. ive been so busy. and i woke up this morning.. and found myslef in another country. hehe. god. i love my job...

ive been seeing sights i never thought i'd see.. knowing things i never thought i could ever fathom.. and talking to people whom if i had led my sheltered abnormal life, i wouldnt have even stopped to ask "how are you?". but im doing all these things now.

again, im a stranger in an even stranger land.

anyway, i know not a lot of people read my blogs anymore. or ever did. but to update those who get triggerhappy with their mice.. (haha).. i am still overseas. cant talk much about it or else id have to kill all of you. i may still have a month left but like mama's reaction.. "last month pa one month na lang ah". so maybeit will be longer. but i am planning a good and long vacation.. vegas to see the family then to tracy to see pops then probly to LA to hit them clubs. i also wanna go see my lala in chicago.

i miss my bed. really. sleeping in jump seats arent comfortable anymore. i miss carrying a cellfone around, now i carry a rifle.

life takes sharp turns.. watch out for that curb.

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i got an early promotion. astig. senior airman. was an airman first class. naks. im so proud of myself. hehe. sorry for being cocky.

ps. lemme know doo when ur in CA. kitakits tayo.

they told me when i was younger to aim for the sky. for a while, i thought it was a silly notion.. "aim for the sky, pffft.. thats like throwing a rock to the sun, knowing it will just come back to earth".

aim for the sky.

well, i did it. i touched the sky. against my cynicism.. i was aiming for the sky. maybe because i wanted to take off, and leave everything behind.. maybe because i wanted to feel air between my feet and the ground.. i gotta quote kanye on this one..

"i gotta testify, come up with a spot looking extra fly.. from the day i die.. IMMA TOUCH THE SKY!"



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Ive been so busy with work, which is good cos theyre sending me everywhere.. next month im going back to arizona. and by july im going to the academy up in colorado springs. ive been such a douche cos ive been trying to keep myslef busy, that i forgot to say happy birthday to the best girl ive had the pleasure of calling m best friend.

happy birthday cats. love u so much. i miss u so bad.

yesterday i turned 22. so yeah, happy birthday to me and all that rap. (i like rap better right now than jazz). good things and bad things. but its my birthday, so i went to a party. it was at nick's house, only four ppl knew about my birthday, i kept it that way.

i didnt even drink. i swear lis, i wasnt drunk. so u loose the bet.

i didnt even stay, i just slinked out smoothly.. without goodbyes except to melissa and kevin. but an hour before i did my disappearing act, i saw a shooting star. its been a while. so i made a wish. hopefully the double strength of a shooting star wish and a birthday wish makes me wish come true.. hehe . we'll see in two years time.

good things: i got a christmas card from my lil brother from big brothers for america. it was made in school, hand drawn with crayolas and stick people. it was the best part of my day.. thanks lil one.

it sucks when ur waiting for that call.. and u dont want to call em, cos its too 'stalker-like qualities'.
its nice when they send a text message though out of the blue when ur not waiting.
it sucks when ur at a party in a house full of people and that one person u want to be with isnt there.
but its nice to know that ur being missed.
it sucks eating by urself..
but its nice when u get a fone call cos they didnt want to eat by themselves, too.

oh.. cool song btw. my new soundtrack.

happy 22nd birthday to me.

--why does god let u meet someone, like em, even if they cant be in ur life anyway? sucks.

well, make a wish birthday boy. .